Anyway, I was just reflecting on life and it’s pretty intense.
So many friends have come and gone, friends I thought I would have forever, and it blows my mind. There are still moments where I wish I could call up one of my old best friends just to tell them something that happened, and then I remember, sadly, that I haven’t spoken to her in… years. And then, I remember again that it wasn’t my fault that the friendship ended. It was a mutual decision, though unspoken, that just unfolded before us before we knew what happened. One day we woke up and four years passed us by without a single word. Still, all this time later, it stings.
Relationships. When I look back on all of the guys I dated before I found my future husband, half the time I wonder what I was thinking and the other half… my only excuse is I must have been drunk. Don’t get me wrong, some of them were great and they taught me lots of things like what I don’t want and how to put my foot down to get what I deserve. I truly believe that all of those relationships that went horribly wrong helped me grow as a person, made me stronger, and made me understand what I deserve and what I need, and a few years ago, I found exactly that. If I would have met my fiance any sooner, I don’t think I would have been the same person, and I don’t think we would have been as perfectly compatible as we are. So, every miserable jerk that I dated and every one that was a good guy has set me up for the perfect guy, and I couldn’t be happier or luckier to be with him today.
Now, in just a few months I’ll get to marry the most perfect guy I could have ever asked for, who has been with me through the hardest of times, who I love more than I thought possible.
So, the advice I have after all of this is, if you feel somethings wrong, it probably is, so move on. If you feel he isn’t giving you 100% or treating you the way you deserve to be treated, move on. If he doesn’t go out of his way to make sure you know he loves you, move on. Life is too short to stay in a relationship hoping that it will get better. It probably wont because at this point, you’ve both already fallen into rolls that are too hard to change.
Don’t give up. Wait for the man who sweeps you off of your feet and makes you feel as beautiful and amazing as you are.
Much love and good luck ladies and gents,